Tiny Birthday Mix :)

You know how I write letters to you on every birthday, and we are never together so they always end up being sent online and then lost in the thread of a million messages. But this time, I really wanted to immortalize this letter, and it’s only fair that, after having known you for the longest time, I should dedicate a little something to you.

First of all, many, many happy returns of the day! 21 is after all, a big turning point and I hope that you are feeling all the best emotions at this very moment.

Ever since the time we met, you have brought something to my life – you have always been symbolic in my life, of something akin to tenderness and romance and gentleness. And today, I want to remind you of the many things in my life that are present only because you made it happen. So I wrote this little something for you.

Dearest Horsy,

You remind me of those times when I accidentally fell in love, and the times when I was a little too not over those heart aches. Of sitting by the lake side and playing a guitar, singing to the mellow tune of Hey There Delilah. You remind me of the time when we could sing Words to each other and dream of that one love.

I remember the time you made me listen to Queen of my Heart ; even now I can’t listen to a single Westlife song without thinking of you. It’s almost like, how can someone do so much with so little? How can someone know the Shape of my Heart the way you do? J This is becoming romantic, hehe. But what can I do? You’re very cute, and if you could see me now, then you’d probably smile. Because the last time you saw me on your birthday, we were 16. Oh, I suddenly remembered my 16^th birthday, when you called me up half an hour before 12 and then we listened to Fifteen for one last time. Little did we know that we would meet again in college…because let’s face it, you belong with me! 

Just so you know, I’m very lucky to have you in my life and since 2005 we have come such a long way. We have laughed and cried, there were times when we were down and times when we were on fire…but most of all I think, amidst broken dreams and empty boulevards, in the end it really did not matter. But what did matter was that we were together and in our own right, we were royals. After all, it’s a mad world out there and who’s to stop us from going right out and taking a look around? ;P

I want you to know, that in the days to come, even if all your bridges burn down, it’s alright because this is YOUR life and you don’t need anyone else to be your Superman. You can fight it yourself because you are brave and you are splendid.  I’m not asking you to be Happy, but to be content – something I have always told myself. When the world seems like a beautiful mess, just give your heart a break and if possible, lose yourself in some music. Because this, along with our memories, is sure to fix you. 

Love,

Your Cat J 

Haha, I hope you found all the songs.  There are around 25 of them!

Have an amazing day ahead, horses! Go out and do something that you really love, and make this a new beginning. I’m sure you will. 

Letter to Future Self

So a friend of mine suggested this – why not write a letter to your future self? It’s kind of like talking to yourself (?); except, I’m publishing this so I’ll stick to the normal stuff. I’d rather not have you peek inside my head.

And you should know I've done this before. But this time I’m not a 12 year old stuffing paper down the spines of books for myself to read a year later.
So, here goes.

Dear 31-year old Me,

The fact that you are reading this letter now can mean one of the two things:

      1. You have a secure job, a great life and lots of time to spare so that you can read your past blog posts.

2    2.  You’re freaking jobless and you kill time for a living. In that case I don’t know how much ‘living’ you’re doing; I mean you’re practically dead if this happens.

Well, if you are completely content with everything around you, that’s amazing – you've achieved everything you set out for so go find yourself a new set of problems. And if you’re not then all I can say is – wow, you are more consistent than ever!

However, back in 2014, you had some funny (albeit realistic) problems. Let’s have a look at how far we have come, shall we?

You wanted a good CAP (not kidding!).

Yeah, remember that stupid horror story which comprised of a digit and a few decimal places and somehow equated to your level of academic intelligence in college? I wonder if it changed for the better after all.

BUT, you know this thing about you; this little voice inside of your head which keeps telling you to read more and appreciate knowledge? You see, when you were a kid, marks didn't matter to you. It was about knowing and learning and going to sleep everyday with the sheer satisfaction that you now knew a little bit more about this marvelous universe. And it should always be that way – always. Because, really – so much for grades! Right now, at this very moment, does it even matter?

You wanted to travel.

No honestly, if you've STILL not been to Tokyo and London and Paris, I want you to bang your head on the nearest wall; then leave whatever you’re doing, go to your room, pack your suitcases and leave! I don’t know where you’re going to go, but really – just go. It’s now or never.

It’s a great planet and I don’t think there’s anything you wanted more than treading the same paths chosen by your favorite people – Tolkien, Lewis, Austen, Bronte, Dickens, Elliot, Rowling…this list can go on and on. Remember – great men found inspiration in little things. If you want to see the world through their eyes, read their books, perceive their inventions and revel in their creations – go places, meet people, learn more about the planet. So what are you even waiting for? Go, go and go again!

BUT if you've actually been to these places and you’re laughing at this letter right now, then I want to congratulate you. This has been the best dream you ever had. And I hope you have enough money left to plan your next trip because you know you can never have enough of this.

You wanted to write a story.

Everyone wants a story. Back in 2014, you didn't have a story. You wanted to write but you didn't have a – let’s see, you didn't have the right prompt. You wrote many stories – but you never wrote THE story, you know? What Harry Potter was to Rowling, what Middle-Earth was to Tolkien, what Romeo and Juliet was to Shakespeare. There wasn't anything like that for you!

Well, it isn't easy – but do you have a story now? If you do, please tell me you are writing it down. If you don’t it’s completely fine, one day you will. Don’t ever stop searching for it.

You wanted a house of your own.

I’m sure EVERYONE has this dream – to build the perfect nest. So, I hope you have a home now. Maybe you've built the library you always wanted, and maybe you have a fireplace (even if it’s make believe) and I really hope you have that one dog and two cats you planned on adopting. Oh, and do you have that wall? You know you wanted to paint a wall in your house with scenes from your favorite fictional wonder lands. Lothlorien, Hogwarts, Westeros, Never Never land and heck who can forget – Narnia (check behind your wardrobe)! I’m sure you have one hell of a house! 

Oh, and I hope you have enough food. Remember to keep your fridge always stocked.

You wanted to fall in love.

You were never ready to “settle down” and you know that. I mean there was still so much to do – go on a crazy road trip, dive from a cliff (or an airplane), go to COMIC-CON (hell yeah) and get (accidentally) married in Vegas! Of course, it would be awesome to share all this with ‘someone special’.

There are some people who believe in the theory of “waiting” for someone. But knowing you, you’re not going to wait and settle for just anyone – knowing you, you’re going to find the most amazing person in this universe for yourself and you’re going to reach out to them.

And every time you think of failed and unrequited loves, tell yourself this - they didn't choose me, and they missed out on

     1.   A truckload of love and

     2.   One hell of a person.

    3.   Like, what were they even thinking?

So if you have found someone now, it must be really the One. Pat yourself on the shoulder; you've done a good job.

And most of all, you wanted world peace.

Nah, kidding. But yeah, I’m sure you had some other goals which weren't completely personal. You wanted to start an Animal Shelter. Oh, wait.

Anyways, you did reflect a lot on life and people and beliefs and the Universe. I think your thoughts made you a better person, so always keep thinking J

Now that we've come to the end of the letter, I’d just like you to know one thing – you’re cool. You know you are and I’m not saying this to sound ridiculously self-obsessive or whatever. And I honestly feel you deserve to give yourself a break and for once appreciate everything around you.

Look at nature, look at your friends (and your pets) and look at all the things you have – and I hope you’re smiling right now. And even if the world looks terrible, you know you can brave it – because if you really want to, this terrible world with its hurricanes of fear and misery and rage can still conspire to make you win. It takes courage to seek out a silver lining in the cloud. And you can do it.

So don’t worry too much. Curl up in bed, pick up a book and put on some music – you deserve this life and much more.

Keep it up, future-self.

Lots of love,

21-year old you.